The day I lost my Best friend.....

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31st August, 2017 the day when things changed drastically in my life. Not only did I just lose my best friend on this day, I even lost someone who I thought would be my forever. That day we had a small argument in the school and just a 'NO' to three magical words drifted us apart forever. By the time I reached home and switched on my mobile, I received a text stating "bye forever" and before I could reply to his text I was blocked everywhere, legit every social media app where we used to have a conversation, I was blocked ! Things changed from then, and then the next day at school we did not even dare to see each other. I still don't understand whether his "bye forever" meant to say that he is saying bye to someone he thought would be his forever or either he meant to end everything forever except the memories.

I have no idea if he even reads my blog or not, which are mostly about him. lol ! We don't talk anymore but just because we don't talk anymore, doesn't mean that I've forgotten about him. Truth is, I do my best to check upon him, to see how he's doing. To see if he's okay, but every time I get the urge to talk to him, it suddenly hits me that we're strangers. The memories still hit me way too hard just like a direct punch on my face, and yeah I was completely broken for months and taking care of myself became a huge task for me, but have you ever seen a flower grow ? 


Of course not, like it’s nearly impossible to wait for anything that takes too long. But, if you did, it would change you. It would slow you down. It would remind you that real things take time. But in the case of a flower, you plant a seed in the ground and a whole world develops and stretches out and opens up. It’s easy to get confused when we are moving so fast and to think we’re doing the right thing when really we are not. But if we are lucky, we could find a balance. We could take a step back, we could take a breath. The next time you see a flower sticking up out of the ground or in a vase, just remember that part of what makes it beautiful is how long it took to grow. It also probably needs rain and sunlight but most importantly it takes TIME to bloom ! The same way this little rain made me love myself more ! Give yourself time to heal. Don't expect the next person to band-aid for what the last person did. The time I gave to myself made me bloom on my own. I do miss him being my best friend. I just miss him in general.


Keep blooming! Keep growing!
Love,
DJ ❤

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