Just need that someone !!

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At 3 AM songs turn out to be more meaningful and the lyrics hit hard. They say life is a song, sing it. There are the times in my life where the only thing I feel I have are songs which carry me away. Listening to songs at 3 AM puts me into the parallel world. Every song has an untold story. 

The other day I ended my day by listening to alone pt. 2 by Alan Walker. The lyrics said, 

We all need that someone

Who gets you like no one else

Right when you need it the most

We all need a soul to rely on

A shoulder to cry on

A friend through the highs and the lows. 


But not everyone has that someone, nobody cares or understands until you're in a hospital bed or crying inside the bathroom wanting to end it all. I hate myself so much, though everyone disagrees with this and says how pretty and amazing I am, but I am not. I feel like I ruin every relationship I get. I hate how I look, how I act, I hate how angry I get all the time, I hate all of me. I can tell my friends to be strong and love themselves, but I cannot do it myself, I feel worthless and feel that I don't deserve to be loved. 


The worst feeling is when that random sadness hits you, that sudden breakdown that makes you go insane, when you cannot cry or scream and let your heart out, but you just have to deal with it somehow. I hate it when one day I think I am happy and that I am doing good and the next day I just get hit with everything at once again. There is so much going on in my head and not a single person could understand it. Even if someone understood, I feel they would judge me for being an attention seeker. All I ever need is someone who would listen and doesn't ask me questions, doesn't judge me and is always there for me. Steve Maraboli once said that "sometimes we need someone to just listen. Not to try and fix anything or offer alternatives, but to just be there to listen. An ear that listens can be medicine to a heart that hurts."


Honestly, I am just tired of holding so much shit inside me. I have so much to say, but I know I wouldn't matter to anyone so I just stay quiet and keep it to myself and keep moving on with life. Sometimes being alone has its different reasons and peace. Only if we all had that someone, would we not be alone, but having yourself with you, is more than any other company you require around you! Find yourself and bloom! Let that star inside you shine bright ✨♥️


Love,
DJ ❤

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